Sunday, July 13, 2014

Silly Faces

Ava is quite the talker these days. And she loves her tongue. She's always sticking it out and curling it up and down. She's such a silly, happy girl. Anytime I get out my phone to take a picture of her, she gets very quiet and focused on my phone. I've handed it to her a few times and she instantly grabs it and gets super excited about it. It's amazing that she stayed on her back long enough for me to take these pictures. She's always rolling over to her stomach and she's getting really good at holding her head up. Several times she's rolled three or four times continuously, and I've found her several feet away from where she started off at. We wonder if she won't be a little quicker to crawl than Raegan was, but who knows. I'm okay with not having to babyproof for awhile longer. :)
 




New Room

Finally, finally this week we got Raegan moved into her new room. There's still a few things we need to get out of the old room, and we need to paint the dresser for Raegan's new room still, but basically she's moved in. She was super, super excited to sleep in her big girl bed Saturday evening for the first time. There's so much more room for her to play, and I've been working hard to organize it so that it can stay tidy (ish).
 

Bonus picture: Raegan as a walrus. :) Love my goofy girl.

Mastered!

Well, I think we've got the front wrap cross carry mastered. I've been watching videos on YouTube for a hip carry that I want to try this coming week.
 
 

 

Look at those blue, blue eyes!

Wednesday, June 18, 2014

Highs and Lows

Raegan. So much personality wrapped up into four short years. She brings me so much joy, and so many challenges at the same time.

She's always been a bit high strung, a bit more needy than the norm. I didn't realize exactly how needy of a baby she was until Ava came along. Caring for Baby Ava is simple. She's laid back, she's happy most of the time, she's already pretty much on a schedule at not quite four months. People tell me that first babies are like that because you as a first time parent project your insecurities and worries onto your firstborn. I think there is a lot of truth in that, but I think Raegan was going to be this way regardless of anything I did.

2014 has been a challenging year as far as raising Raegan has gone. Starting about November or December last year, she started to demonstrate some new behaviors. In talking with other moms of four year olds, and from my own experience of four year old girls getting ready to head to kindergarten, I know it's not abnormal. I've seen it in action in plenty of other four year olds. When I see a mom at the store being sassed by a child that looks to be about four, I just want to hug her and say, "I'm in your club. I know." Four is hard. Everyone talks about two and three. No. Just no. Four is the trial by fire. And no one talks about how hard four is. I think it's because we all though they should be over these behaviors by now, and no one wants to admit that their four year old is throwing tantrums. And screaming at you. And throwing and kicking things. Obviously we have the added factor of Raegan no longer being the center of the universe with the addition of Ava. She loves Ava. Crazy, unconditional love. She never says a thing against her. But I would say there are a lot more attention seeking behaviors now, and a lot of them directed towards me. A lot of insecurities about her new place in our family. I'm trying as hard as I can to be patient, to be reassuring, to do the right thing, but some days. Oh, some days I just want to turn on the TV all day so that I can have a break.

But with the bad comes the good. Raegan feels everything. EVERYTHING. Deeply, vividly, intensely. So when things are WRONG AND BAD, they are the epitome of WRONG and BAD and no one will ever understand how painful her life is as it ends. But when things are good, they aren't just good. They are AMAZING and BEAUTIFUL and THE BEST. And for this, I wouldn't change her for the world. Because even though her lows are low (so, so low) and challenging to deal with, her highs are so high. She is so excited about every small thing. She is so thankful for everything you give her or do for her. I hear daily that I am the best cooker. She is still thanking me for her new pink sparkly shoes a week later. Raegan is so joyous and so easily excited, and has so many plans for her life.

So I'll take this trial. This walk through the desert. I hope I can support her and help her to the extent that she'll come out of the challenging stage a better person. That she'll learn lessons that will stay with her, and become more mature in her emotions and behavior. But I wouldn't change Raegan for the world. Because maybe one day my little girl won't throw fits, but she also won't have stars in her eyes over everything. She'll become older and not see the world through the rose colored sparkly glasses that she does now. I'm going to try my hardest to help her keep her intensity and joy, and hopefully some of her emotion will smooth out a little.

It's quite the rollercoaster, parenting is. We'll see what comes next as we take the next hill towards five years old and kindergarten.



 
 
 
 
 
 
 

3 Month Pictures, Take Two

Why are you stuffing me in this doll bed again, Mommy?

Blankets are delicious!

 


 

 

I love the concentration on her face in this one.

Hehe

Her life is hard, y'all.

My favorite

Look at my blankie!

This one makes me giggle. It doesn't even look like her really.

#avassillyfaces

She loves her family!

Monday, June 16, 2014

3 Month Pictures, Take One

Take One of Ava's 3 month pictures! :)






I kind of like this one. We're going to revisit this pose again, because this is the doll bed that my Grandpa made my mom when she was little. So there's all kinds of significance for me in getting a picture of Ava with this, since she'll never know my Grandpa. :(



I thought she was going to cut us at this point :D

Can you look this cute while being so serious?

Daddy, WHY does Mommy put me in cloth diapers?


Saturday, June 7, 2014

Wearing my Baby

I just love wearing Ava. And my woven finally came, so now I've got tons of new carries to try out. I need to try a back carry with Raegan sometime. I think she'll get a big kick out of that.

I promise Ava loves being worn, even though she looks highly unimpressed in the one picture. :) She really loves sucking on the straps right now. I need to get on making those suck pads....